if this was just a bad dream. I am so ready for this to be behind me. For this to be over! For me to not have cancer. For me to not have a colostomy!
I had a dream.
It was a bad dream.
I woke up with another bag.
I have exactly 30 days (including today) to learn to accept the fact that I might wake up with another bag.
I prayed for my second surgery...with the understanding I would get rid of this bag. I never for a second thought getting another bag was in the picture.
I hate this bag.
If Dr. T knows what is best for him, he will fix me up and forget he even mentioned a second bag.
I know...I'm complaining...I'm being a baby...I should be happy I am alive and things are going well.
Well....just imagine for a minute that YOU are carrying a bag of poop around!
NO FUN!
NO THANK YOU!!!
You are voicing all the normal thoughts of someone getting ready to have the reversal surgery but you have the added "C" word to deal with. I KNOW you are going to be perfectly fine Jen and YOU need to know that too!!! Lots of love, hugs and kisses coming your way!
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